After a 50K and two 50 milers later, the pain was so constantly dull and debilitating that I knew running in this state would only make my leg worse. Not that I wanted to run - by that point the injury reduced my motivation for running almost completely. Even on "good" days I would go out with intentions of running longer only to decide to head back inside after just two miles. I still tried to run the Frozen Sasquatch 50K in early January but dropped after the first 25K loop. I was done.
|A DNF at Frozen Sasquatch after winning the previous three years.
Motivation is a strange thing too. It seems like motivation is only around when things are going well and that it acts upon a continuum. I was riding that motivational wave until it collapsed. I had been overcompensating for weak and imbalanced core and upper leg muscles mile after mile for five year. When the time came that running was no longer fun for me, it didn't take long for my motivation to shift directions. It was easy to use the time for other parts of life. I was spending more time working on grad. school, teaching, being a husband and working on a house.
From November to mid-February I ran very little. By the end of the time off I realized that I still love running. I have been slowly rehabbing my body and building a little mileage into my weeks. Motivation for running is creeping back into my life and I find myself dreaming of long trail runs in the forest. I am not sure when I will race again - I am just focused on getting to a point where my body can sustain a decent week of mileage so I can enjoy rugged hills and trails. When you go without something like this, you only ask for the small things back... and they're coming.
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